BREAK ME LORD

"Lord, whatever it takes, break me"

I kept asking God why break me? Why is it only me in this process? Why is that I didn't feel any brokenness from this person or that? Why not this or that person too? Why me Lord? Why me?

To tell you honestly, at first I don't want to be broken like other people who wept, grieve, and can't find any reasons to continue in life because I know I am happy, contented and have plans for the future. But the scary part, God break me into million pieces all over again just what like what happened last 2010. It happened again for the second time and I wasn't expecting any of it. That one thing I fear my life happened again.

Year 2019 was the best and worst year for me. It had a lot of laughs, good memories to keep forever, new family in Christ (my ates and kuyas), and of course brokenness inside and out.

But God relieved me what He wants is that He wants me to have a deeper relationship Him more than with anyone else. God knows both my weakness and strength. He took the person away from me to let me know that He alone is both my weakness and strength. He made me realize that He no longer is my priority nor the center of my life. He broke me to reach out to me, bring me back to Him and pursue His will in my life.

In the process of brokenness, I thank God for breaking me the way He wanted me to broken. The way He reached out to me. It made me more intimate than ever with God, hungry for His word, for a deeper real relationship, and getting to know Him.

Brokenness is a process. Painful but necessary, but it is a blessing. -Ptr Peter Tan-Chi

Be thankful for your brokenness. Why? It is God's way to mold you in to something beautiful. His way to mold you in to what you are made for, your purpose in life. Allow God to break you in any possible or impossible way, trust me it's worth it.

I can't tell you how much happy I am knowing that you are too broken just as I am.

Let us build our foundation with God firmer than ever that nothing can make us stumble on whatever or whoever comes in our life.

Once whole, now broken and letting God to continue to break me to become extraordinary for Him.

Let His will be done and not ours.

All for Christ.